A Fresh Start

These past two weeks have been absolutely overwhelming for me.  Admitting to everyone that my bouts with anxiety and depression were unmanageable and that I was seeking help from a therapist was a HUGE step for me to take.  Once I did this, I realized that it was time to make some other very hard decisions.  It was time that I put myself first and give myself what I needed in order to get back to being 100%.  I ended a relationship with someone who I (foolishly) thought I was going to marry.  This was so hard.  I loved this person so much, and still do, but it became pretty clear to me that I wasn't getting the respect and love out of the relationship that I deserved.  I also left my job with a company that I dearly adore.  The stress that my job brought to my life was unhealthy and although I love the people, I had to put myself first.  Yesterday was my last day and I cried on the way home.  For a while, I felt like my whole world was getting flipped upside down.  What in the world was I going to do?  But then I realized that God has such a big plan for me and I just have to trust Him.  He had put these obstacles in my life because He knew I could knock them down.  He did this so I could become a much stronger and better person.  As much as I'm hurting, I'm so grateful to Him for this opportunity to get myself on track and become the woman that I want to be.  It's a almost like a second chance; a fresh start.  I usually hate change, but I am fully embracing this one.  I got my hair cut to a length much shorter than I've ever had and I'm beginning my Master's degree program next month.  For once, I have no idea where my life is going and I'm okay with it.  Is this what happiness feels like?!  I could not be more blessed to have such amazing family and friends in my like who support me and love me for exactly who I am.  I would not have been able to take any of these steps without them.  I can't wait to see what God has in store for me.  I'll keep you posted!

xx,

Lex